It's the most wonderful time of the year.

Those Christmas lights
Light up the street
Down where the sea and city meet
May all your troubles soon be gone
Oh Christmas lights keep shining on...

Merry Christmas, friends and faithful blog readers.

Deathly Hallows

Corey and I win at Harry Potter.
And Harry Potter t-shirts.

And Cardigans.

And Short hair.

Except I win a little more on bf with skillz b/c mine can free-handedly draw a siq dark mark tat.

I LOVE HARRY POTTER Y'ALL!

Lighten Up, It's Just Television

Ok. So I don't watch THAT much television. But I do have my fair share of guilty pleasure reality t.v. shows that I tune in to. And right now I need a platform to rant.

WHY THE EFF WOULD YOU SEND JESSE AND AARON HOME? EVERYONE ON THE BIGGEST LOSER IS STUPID.

also

GRETCHEN, YOU ARE RIDICULOUS AND MONDO DESERVED TO WIN -- EVEN TIM GUNN THINKS SO, AND TIM GUNN IS ALWAYS RIGHT ... ALWAYS!!!

That is all.

We let our hair grow long and forget all we used to know.

I'm interested in starting over. 

I'm interested in leaving this place where I'm bored and "patient."

I'm interested in actually trying new things and finding something I can be passionate about pursuing.

For so long I've been afraid of making wrong decisions and I have struggled with waiting for God's timing and not my own.

But you know what?

After a while, a sister gets trapped.  And this place that you have called "patience" is really just a box you've put yourself in so that you can hide yourself from everything.  I can't help but wonder if all this time, God's been waiting for me to move -- and here I sit, just patiently waiting.



Step 1: Be liberated of my hair.

I've been wanting to cut my hair short for a really long time now. So I finally did it.

I'm going to start doing things because I want to. I refuse to let fear and failure tell me what I can and cannot do.

Take that, life.

November 6, 2004

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.  Someone PLEAAAASE make me 18 years old again!

Starbucks Christians are OOC

I've determined that Christians love Starbucks.  Everyone here is either having a Bible Study or an awkward singles ministry date.

I'm almost positive I'm eavesdropping on a first date conversation right now.

Guy:  "I'm a republican, but I have a really good friend who is a conservative democrat.  He's christian, so he's against gay rights, abortion...."

Please keep in mind that these people are very middle-aged.

Girl:  "I've been watching True Blood on HBO."
Guy:  "I've read the first Twilight."
Girl:  "He looks GOOD with the haircut.  It was a necessary evil to see how he became the wolf and how he was going to react to everything."



I'm seriously gonna need these guys to get married.

Update on the Hogwart's Express

Thinking about it, life has been a pretty eventful train ride lately.

1. Patrick turned 21 so now he can go drank with me when I wanna get crunk.

2. Got into my first car wreck and even though it happened two weeks ago, I still have no idea what is happening to my car. A huge thanks to everyone (Patrick/Laura/Apryl/Corey/Lee/Jen) who gives and offers me rides. I hate being stranded all the time. And I hate being a nuisance. I'm gonna give Patrick a million dollars for waking up every morning to drive me to work. My insurance hates me and it really stresses me out. I just want my car back, ppl. :[ Again and again, God is waving a huge flag in my face, begging for me to let go and let him have control. I just can't ever seem to let him. I don't know how. :[

3. Baby shower games are STUPID. Can you all believe that in all 24 years of my existence, I've never been to a baby shower before this weekend?!

4. Harry Potter world is happening, people! PLZ BE JELUZ!

5. Prayer requests: For things with my car to be sorted out. For me to realize God is taking care of me. For me to realize God is taking care of my dad. Taking care of my baby sister. Taking care of my baby sister's baby. Taking care of all my family. Taking care of my hurt. Taking care of my future. Taking care of me even though I never ask him to.

6. A glass can only spill what it contains.

It's good to have options.

Summertime Blues

I really hope I get to see more of youz guyz this summer.  

Work and no summer is kinda freakin' me out.  How depressing is it that 8-5 is for the rest of my life?!  Chris, remember to keep a sistah accountable!

Ha Ha

Happy bird day, Daddy!

Prayer Blogging

I was joking around with Jacob the other day about our Bible study starting a prayer blog so we can keep up with each others prayer requests, needs, praises, etc. Well, here I am. Prayer blogging. Someone please make me more Christian.

I'm not gonna lie. It sort of takes a lot for me to pray these days. I've gotten into this really great habit of harboring all my burdens and only praying when I'm at my wit's end. I'm also gonna be pretty honest when I say I mostly don't pray all that much 'cause my faith in the power of prayer has pretty much gone kaput.

Well, here goes.

Prayer Requests:

1. Mern + bebeh + motivation
2. Dad + health + encouragement
3. Mom
4. Apryl + future plans
5. Me + direction + job things + transitioning into adulthood and being okay with that + just me in general. Lawd knows I need all the prayer I can git!

K that's it for now because I'm too tired.

Oooh, but before I forget...

Praise:

I GOT TO HANG OUT WITH MY BFF TONIGHT. IT'S ABOUT DANG TIME.

Sweet Darlin'

Y'all.  I totally got to see the girl of my dreams in real life tonight.  And she is beeeeeeauuuuutiful! Seriously. Zooey and M.Ward can go ahead and marry me already.

I can't express to you how good it felt standing in the cold, boogie-in and singin' and bein' happy. Patrick and Apryl better really start a productive band so I can live my rock star life vicariously through them.

Nights like this should happen more often.

LYLAS

It's still so weird to me that everyone, including myself, is growing up.  Even weirder, though, is the fact that my little sisters all of a sudden turned into adults.  Basically overnight.  When did that even happen?!  (Apryl, stop drinking - you're too young!  Mary, who's buying your cigarettes for you?!  You're only fourteen)!

Okay, okay.  So I know that Apryl's been old enough to drink for years and Mary turned 14 in 2003...but still.  Where does the time go?

Apryl just went on her first real life job interview (go Apes!) and my baby sister is going to have a baby!!!! (Aunt Jenny > Aunt Apey).  Life has had it's fun, crazy, sad, and terrible moments - and through all of them, my sisters have been there with me - feeling the same joy and pain that our lives have constantly hit us with.  No one else truly understands the pain I feel when an answer is given to "how's dad?" - or the joy in the response I get to give when Mary answers "what?" to "hey Mern, guess what?"  It's such a blessing to have people in my life coming from the same place, understanding any sort of emotion I can't express to other people.  The three of us have lived life together and gotten each other through some really, really tough times.  I honestly don't think I could've dealt with any of life's blows without them.  We've kept each other laughing when things got boring, hopeful when things were sad, and strong when things were scary and painful.

I've said it before, and I'll say it again.  My sisters are the most beautiful people I know.

I LOVE MY SISSIES Y'ALL!

Spring Weekend

After a rocky start to the weekend and much debate in my head, I decided to join Patrick on his trip home to Houston.



We routinely stopped at Buc-ee's on the way up and had ourselves a romantic Buc-ee's parking lot picnic.



(In case you were wondering...yes, Brittany and I DID cut Patrick's beard into pieces!) ...you're welcome :]

(...and even though there's only a picture of me cutting the beard, Brittany was totally there helping and this photograph is proof because you can see her boot.   See....  Right there.  Brittany's boot.)

So yes.  Back to the mini-road trip to Houston.  Super fun, right?  I got to play video games, eat yummy foods, laugh with my favorite twin brothers + Brittnay, trampoline, and skate a little [and I do mean, very little].  Is balance something I can learn?  I sure hope so.

While I really wish I could explain in more detail how relaxing and joyous my weekend was, Daniel Laruso is calling my name and I must oblige or else he'll karate chop me in two!

さようなら!

81° y'all!

Days like this call for Jason Schwartzman.

Work is temporary

I live my life on the weekends.

Hello, Beautiful.

Punk Rawk Forevz

It never gets old!



I'M STILL YOUNG AND I'D LIKE TO STAY THAT WAY
'CAUSE GROWIN' UP WON'T MAKE EVERYTHING OK
I'M STILL YOUNG AND I'D LIKE TO STAY THAT WAY
I'VE GOT A VOICE AND I'VE GOT A LOT TO SAY
I'VE GOT A LOT TO SAY

The Stresses of Blogging

Last night, as I was promoting Abbey's blog, Abbey told me I should start blogging again...and I agree. My only problem is that I have 3 separate accounts on 3 separate blog hosting sites and I can't decide which one to update on...so I update all three anytime I create a new post. It seems redundant and stupid and I honestly think no one reads any of the three...but still! Is there someplace that can just consolidate all my entries and comments from each of my blogs (comments are the funnest part, no?) into one freakin' massive blog? Where's the blog hosting site for the indecisive? And if it exists and I don't know about it - please let me know!!!

A little blogging history:

Jennifer's Xanga:
What can I say? When the whole blog hype went up, I blogged on xanga incessantly. My friends all had xanga's and we'd update every other day or so and comment on each others entries with fun things and I loved it. We even had a xanga for The Sacred Quartet!

Recently, xanga decided to change it's look (I hate it) and decided to place ads everywhere as well. I can hardly navigate through the new interface b/c I'm so used to my old xanga world. New xanga world sucks (not to mention that none of my friends blog nor read blogs anymore).

No way in hail can I forsake my blogging roots.

Xanga Shoutouts:
me_hotpink
ILOVEKELLERHARBIN
FalalalaLAURA
I AM MICROPHONE
omg_trainwreck
heyitsbradley
Little_Miss_Mary
eatinporkrindz

(haha, we all used to be so hxc. And apparently, krissy deleted her xanga >_< whyyyyy stoop ?!!!!). Aww. I miss y'all. Come back.

Jennifer's Livejournal:
I really don't know why I have one of these. But I do.

LJ Shout Outs:
cocohobobobo
cr4zyk4te

Jennifer's Blogger:
I made an account with blogger a really long time ago. I don't remember why. Over the summer, my friends and I had a summer poetry thing we tried doing and we used blogger to keep each other updated with our poems of the day. I kind of like this site, I just don't know how to use it yet. It always makes me sign in and I have no idea why. Can't I just look at my freakin' blog and stay signed in already?

Blogger Shout Outs:
210 Summer Poetry Club
Just the Girl Next Door